This past week I bumped into someone that I've dreaded bumping into for the past year.  I've been VERYcareful to not let our paths cross.  From past experience our paths seem to cross pretty frequently and at the most unexpected places (ie: the dumbarton bridge??  i mean seriously).  So you can see why I've been extra alert to try not to run into him.  EVERY place is fair game with this guy.  Anyhow, I've been pretty successful for the past half year...until now. 

I guess he's right, alot of things have changed but somethings just never change.  Things were exactly the way they were before.  Our friendship didn't seem to be fazed by our troubled past.  And that is what kills me inside.  I was so sure that I would feel differently about him.  Or that he would act differently towards me.  Or that we would be on different wavelengths now.  Just something to change...so I can let him go.  But now I remember exactly what I've lost.  A friend who I loved.  

Anyways, I'm done trying to control my own fate.  No matter how hard I try I simply cannot control this particularly person/situation in my life.  Everything is the opposite of what I want anyways.  Apparently, someone else has bigger plans for me.  I guess if it was meant to be, God will just have to throw him in my path more often...or not....either way just let me rest in peace already.